So I did call up my RE's office at 10 PM last night. Turns out, I was misinformed that they have nursing staff 24x7. Evening hours there's just service line that ends up calling RE with your msg.
Instantly I said NO. I don't want him to remember me as a hyper woman. So I hung up the call, and just sent an email to my IVF coordinator. She replied this morning with confirmation that next patch should be applied 3" away from the navel: Will keep that in mind!
I'm hoping to be a little less lazy today. Weather's cold but mildly sunny. Feels good to open windows to let the fresh air in. Summer is great because I've windows open all the time so there's ample fresh air. Well, summer- at least these past two years- was very humid in NYC but I loved it. I'm at my best when temps are between 80-90, or even 100 though I'll be found drinking too much of fluids as I sweat so much.
Turns out I'm a lot more comfortable in high temps because my body is always very cold. Most of the time I have cold and chest congestion, sometimes in summer too. My sinuses hurt, I wheeze, and develop breathing problems which are acute enough to be termed asthma. The funny part is, that despite dampness within my body (got to know of this from Ayurveda doctors and Chinese acupuncturists too), I love to drink smoothies, juices, milk shakes, cold coffee etc. In summers or winter, I'm always in for drinking some thing. As if my body is dehydrated.
As per the acupuncturists, a damp body makes it even harder to conceive. They have some terms like yin, yang etc? I don't get into all that, just love my relaxing nap on the acupuncturist's table. It seems like I pay $100 for that 20 minute nap. I often want to sleep more but he has others to attend to. He's a very busy doctor. Past two months that I'm going to him- three times a week pre ovulation, once a week post ovulation- I've figured his four rooms are always filled with patients, and he's running between those rooms like a frenzied guy. I guess he treats 30 or more patients a day. Wow! My doctor must be a rich guy! He doesn't take insurance. I'm paying mostly out of my pocket. But working with two acupuncturists under my insurance plan was futile. I lost about 1.5 yrs in that.
Having said that, I haven't seen anything change in my cycles with this acupuncturist as well. At least with this doc, I put in a lot of hope and faith, if we were to think about how much faith we have in doctor plays a role. It's been 5 months, no change yet. He has quite a few testimonials on his website about how women who were TTC since years, had several failed IUI/IVF, who were being forced for DE, got pregnant naturally or with IVF while on this guy's treatment. I don't know how many are true, or if his success rate is even 50%? I just hope I'll be one of those testimonials some day. I had also inquired into Elizabeth Carpenter's sessions. She sounded excellent but I just didn't get a feel that her clinic would be appropriate for a middle-class woman like me. My RE also has 99% of the class for whom- it seems like- multiple IVF costs out of pocket would be absolutely no big deal. But given my circumstances, I had to choose him over Columbia because even though Columbia was willing to do an IVF on me, they're just so negative about my case.
And I believe a doctor is one of the biggest source of inspiration. I'm not looking for a cheat, but someone who'll give me hope when I need it the most. If it's a hopeless case, still say "I may not be the best one to help you, but hang in there, never know what miracle awaits you".
I expect this because this is not a terminal illness. There are people who were told their cancer would give them just a month more to live. They chose a different doctor who gave the patients a laughter therapy, gave them hope, asked them to pray, and the patients lived for six months or even a year. That's the power a doctor holds. He doesn't write our destiny but sure can guide us through it.
I know I will get what I want. Despite that, I cry so much. I've always lacked patience, I think that's what I need the most. ahhhhh, wish I could buy it OTC! We've the best phones, great technology, home delivery for almost everything, can marry online, can now feel a person far away from us through a magic pillow (was it CNN, not sure- it's not too helpful though), but we cannot buy patience!
Instantly I said NO. I don't want him to remember me as a hyper woman. So I hung up the call, and just sent an email to my IVF coordinator. She replied this morning with confirmation that next patch should be applied 3" away from the navel: Will keep that in mind!
I'm hoping to be a little less lazy today. Weather's cold but mildly sunny. Feels good to open windows to let the fresh air in. Summer is great because I've windows open all the time so there's ample fresh air. Well, summer- at least these past two years- was very humid in NYC but I loved it. I'm at my best when temps are between 80-90, or even 100 though I'll be found drinking too much of fluids as I sweat so much.
Turns out I'm a lot more comfortable in high temps because my body is always very cold. Most of the time I have cold and chest congestion, sometimes in summer too. My sinuses hurt, I wheeze, and develop breathing problems which are acute enough to be termed asthma. The funny part is, that despite dampness within my body (got to know of this from Ayurveda doctors and Chinese acupuncturists too), I love to drink smoothies, juices, milk shakes, cold coffee etc. In summers or winter, I'm always in for drinking some thing. As if my body is dehydrated.
As per the acupuncturists, a damp body makes it even harder to conceive. They have some terms like yin, yang etc? I don't get into all that, just love my relaxing nap on the acupuncturist's table. It seems like I pay $100 for that 20 minute nap. I often want to sleep more but he has others to attend to. He's a very busy doctor. Past two months that I'm going to him- three times a week pre ovulation, once a week post ovulation- I've figured his four rooms are always filled with patients, and he's running between those rooms like a frenzied guy. I guess he treats 30 or more patients a day. Wow! My doctor must be a rich guy! He doesn't take insurance. I'm paying mostly out of my pocket. But working with two acupuncturists under my insurance plan was futile. I lost about 1.5 yrs in that.
Having said that, I haven't seen anything change in my cycles with this acupuncturist as well. At least with this doc, I put in a lot of hope and faith, if we were to think about how much faith we have in doctor plays a role. It's been 5 months, no change yet. He has quite a few testimonials on his website about how women who were TTC since years, had several failed IUI/IVF, who were being forced for DE, got pregnant naturally or with IVF while on this guy's treatment. I don't know how many are true, or if his success rate is even 50%? I just hope I'll be one of those testimonials some day. I had also inquired into Elizabeth Carpenter's sessions. She sounded excellent but I just didn't get a feel that her clinic would be appropriate for a middle-class woman like me. My RE also has 99% of the class for whom- it seems like- multiple IVF costs out of pocket would be absolutely no big deal. But given my circumstances, I had to choose him over Columbia because even though Columbia was willing to do an IVF on me, they're just so negative about my case.
And I believe a doctor is one of the biggest source of inspiration. I'm not looking for a cheat, but someone who'll give me hope when I need it the most. If it's a hopeless case, still say "I may not be the best one to help you, but hang in there, never know what miracle awaits you".
I expect this because this is not a terminal illness. There are people who were told their cancer would give them just a month more to live. They chose a different doctor who gave the patients a laughter therapy, gave them hope, asked them to pray, and the patients lived for six months or even a year. That's the power a doctor holds. He doesn't write our destiny but sure can guide us through it.
I know I will get what I want. Despite that, I cry so much. I've always lacked patience, I think that's what I need the most. ahhhhh, wish I could buy it OTC! We've the best phones, great technology, home delivery for almost everything, can marry online, can now feel a person far away from us through a magic pillow (was it CNN, not sure- it's not too helpful though), but we cannot buy patience!
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